Denial...

I'm in denial about a lot of things, but none so much as my fear to commit to blogging again.

It has been stressful, crazy and tiring around here lately. A lot of that has to do with my constant struggle to commit myself 100% at work. I am currently working 60% (2 days in the office and one from home). I think the one day at home makes things hard. I'm not good at working and then being done. Generally, I just keep working whenever I can find just a little bit of time.

So, I feel I let my kids down, by saying, "mom is working, hold on one second." I also feel I am letting work down by not giving it more time. A constant battle occurs in my head during the day and at night, well, at night my mind doesn't turn off. I just keep thinking about what I wanted to accomplish, but didn't that day. So, my list for the next day just gets longer.

Part of me feels my struggles would be different if my husband and I just worked 8-5 jobs and had the nights and weekends off for family obligations and household things. Alas, that is not the lifestyle we choose to live.

Each day we make the choice to continue to provide safe, nutritious food for the world to eat. And that profession requires work 24/7. We were joking the other day about why I even got married since recently it has felt like I've been a single parent (that is a single parent that still must pick up after and feed a grown man). Seasons change and the busy times change, but it has been a long winter of long working days for the man feeding cattle.

So, althought I get on the computer most days I have been spending time reading up on some of my favorite bloggers instead of updating my own. I've always found reading to be my escape from reality and I think that explains my love of blogs.

I really will be working to slowly catch this blog up and keep it updated because I do enjoy it.

With that I will leave you the link to one of my favorite blogs, The Pioneer Woman.

In March I will be roadtripping with some gals to meet the wonderful Ree Drummond, Pioneer Woman, in Montana! So, so excited!!!!!